Finished

I finished the progesterone and now it's supposed to take up to 14 days to start my period.  So now...I just wait. 

On a not trying to have a baby note: its SPRING BREAK!!! We brought my Mom's dogs over on Sunday and they are the new addition to our family!  Last night they slept the whole night in their crate without crying and we were so proud of them!  They've never been crated before now and they are doing awesome.  With the crating also comes "potty training".  They've been outside dogs for 2 years.  Luckily I'm home this week and we're able to start up a schedule for them.  We've also switched them to a more healthier food and made sure to get a bunch of goodies for them.  I like not being home by myself...even if it has been a little bit of a challenge. 

Oscar is the brown and Bubba is the black. 

Progesterone

I'm on a 10 day supply of progesterone which will cause me to get my period.  Today makes day 5.  If I have not had my period 14 days after my last pill I am supposed to contact the fertility center.  When I do get my period I am supposed to call and set up an appointment for clomid.  I'm most excited for this but also nervous as heck.  I can't keep off the internet googling/searching/reading boards  about successes/losses/etc on clomid.  This is all a very tiring process but the end result is totally worth it! 

I'm feeling very optimistic that it will happen for us very soon.  I find myself traveling to the baby section in the stores that we shop in instead of avoiding it.  We look up nursery ideas and baby names.  All things we haven't done in a LONG time because I had lost all hope.  I'm really glad my attitude has changed and I'm hoping for a fantastic outcome! :)

Appointment Update

I love love love our new Dr.  He was straight to the point and very helpful. I am feeling very optimistic about our plans and am looking forward on what's to come.  :)

M.I.A.

Sorry about not blogging lately.  I went through a phase of "is this really something I want to be doing" to "ahh, not sure if we're really ready to have a child" to "well I guess we aren't meant to have children" to "snap out of it Laura, you WILL have kids...you just need to find the right dr!". With so many things going around in my head it was hard to concentrate on anything.  With the holidays and vacations life was just speeding by.  It seems my life has halted for a bit and I'm ready to pick back up on the blogging life.

I dropped my RE like a bad habit.  It wasn't that she was bad.  It wasn't that she was mean.  It was just that she wasn't going as fast as I would like.  I realize she was just trying different things to see if they worked, tried to get my body back into gear, wanted me to try this and that. Really it was all making me more and more disapointed and more and more unconfident about what kind of decision we were making.  I wanted this to be a special process not something that I would regret in the future.

A lady I work with has went through this exact thing.  She was successful a little over 2 yrs ago and is ready to start trying again for number 2.  She recommended me to this fertility clinic and so I decided to make an appointment.  Today is our appointment.  I'm excited/nervous/anxious to find out what the plan will be.  I'm ready to be moving foward, for real this time.  I know this decision was a smart move and I can't wait to see the outcome.

Results

I had to cancel my drs appointment on Friday due to a bad stomach virus.  I couldn't keep anything down and I threw up about 30 times, seriously!  This meant I didn't get to hear about my results. :(

I didn't get to call yesterday because I was super busy at work.  I called today and the results were "all clear and everything looks great!".  Such awesome news.  Now since I was supposed to get my ultrasound on cd10-14 (and obviously I'm passed that) I have to go back on cd 1-5 and start the process over again.  Hopefully this time it will consist of a new step.  OOORRR you all can keep your fingers crossed for me and pray that this is our cycle! :) 

Follow Up

Well I got to this appointment early.  Around 2:35 and checked in.  Filled out the paperwork and got situated.  By the time I went back to the room, undressed, got on the table, did the exam, went to the restroom to clean up and get dressed again the time frame was just under 15 minutes.  Not bad, huh?  I wish.

I took 3 ibuprofen before I left to the appointment.  I listened to Christmas music on the way over-to try and soothe my nerves! lol Got undressed and laid on the table.  The technician was awesome and talked me through it.  

It started off as a regular annual exam.  They inserted the little clicker thing and then inserted the LONG 12" catheter!  I'm glad I didn't see it at first.  I would have flipped the "f" out.  Anyway, I could feel it a little bit.  I could feel her digging (or whatever she was doing!!) around.  It was a bit uncomfortable.  It seemed like she inserted the catheter 3 times(and you better believe it made me lose my breath and jump about 10 inches off the table)....which makes me nervous about the results.  What if my uterus is tilted?  Anyway...she had me scoot back on the table and look at the computer screen. I saw the dye (couldn't feel it, thank goodness!) and had me roll over to my left and then again to my right.  Everything *looked* good but then again I'm not sure because she didn't say anything.  I will find out results either tomorrow or at my Dr's appointment on Friday.

Now I'm sitting here at home, cramping, spotting, and being baby'd by my husband! :) He went out and got dinner and cleaned up afterwards all the while I got to lay on the couch watching tv and surfing the web. :) 

Super Nervous

Today's my HSG and to say I'm nervous is really watering it down.  I don't know why I'm so nervous but I left work at 11 because I just couldn't concentrate on anything.  I figured I might as well take a 1/2 day, go home and try to relax.  I tried crocheting, watching tv, reading, surfing the web.  Nothing is curing my anxiety and I still have 1 more hour at home until I leave.  AHHH!  I'll update later and let you know how it went.