Results

I had to cancel my drs appointment on Friday due to a bad stomach virus.  I couldn't keep anything down and I threw up about 30 times, seriously!  This meant I didn't get to hear about my results. :(

I didn't get to call yesterday because I was super busy at work.  I called today and the results were "all clear and everything looks great!".  Such awesome news.  Now since I was supposed to get my ultrasound on cd10-14 (and obviously I'm passed that) I have to go back on cd 1-5 and start the process over again.  Hopefully this time it will consist of a new step.  OOORRR you all can keep your fingers crossed for me and pray that this is our cycle! :) 

Follow Up

Well I got to this appointment early.  Around 2:35 and checked in.  Filled out the paperwork and got situated.  By the time I went back to the room, undressed, got on the table, did the exam, went to the restroom to clean up and get dressed again the time frame was just under 15 minutes.  Not bad, huh?  I wish.

I took 3 ibuprofen before I left to the appointment.  I listened to Christmas music on the way over-to try and soothe my nerves! lol Got undressed and laid on the table.  The technician was awesome and talked me through it.  

It started off as a regular annual exam.  They inserted the little clicker thing and then inserted the LONG 12" catheter!  I'm glad I didn't see it at first.  I would have flipped the "f" out.  Anyway, I could feel it a little bit.  I could feel her digging (or whatever she was doing!!) around.  It was a bit uncomfortable.  It seemed like she inserted the catheter 3 times(and you better believe it made me lose my breath and jump about 10 inches off the table)....which makes me nervous about the results.  What if my uterus is tilted?  Anyway...she had me scoot back on the table and look at the computer screen. I saw the dye (couldn't feel it, thank goodness!) and had me roll over to my left and then again to my right.  Everything *looked* good but then again I'm not sure because she didn't say anything.  I will find out results either tomorrow or at my Dr's appointment on Friday.

Now I'm sitting here at home, cramping, spotting, and being baby'd by my husband! :) He went out and got dinner and cleaned up afterwards all the while I got to lay on the couch watching tv and surfing the web. :) 

Super Nervous

Today's my HSG and to say I'm nervous is really watering it down.  I don't know why I'm so nervous but I left work at 11 because I just couldn't concentrate on anything.  I figured I might as well take a 1/2 day, go home and try to relax.  I tried crocheting, watching tv, reading, surfing the web.  Nothing is curing my anxiety and I still have 1 more hour at home until I leave.  AHHH!  I'll update later and let you know how it went. 

Dr's appointment

Well I left work at 7:45 thinking I had enough time to make it to the dr's office by 8:15 and I guess I underestimated because I didn't arrive until 8:20 and had to wait until they could squeeze me in and didn't get seen until 9:15.  I was tired of waiting but it was my own fault.  Oh well!


She's happy with my progress on my parlodel and prednisone.  She figures that is why I had my first regular cycle in a LONG time.  I didn't get to start clomid like I thought was going to happen.  Instead I had to schedule an HSG(Hysterosalpingogram) which is a test to see if my tubes are blocked by anything.  They insert dye and see how it travels through my vagina and cervix.  Sorry for the scientific words...lol! The test only lasts about 5 minutes from start to finish and will cause some spotting and cramping afterwards.  There are rumors going around that it ups the chances of getting pregnant because it "cleans out your system".  We'll see.  This is scheduled for December 8th.


24 hrs after the HSG we are supposed to have sex and then go in on the 10th for an ultrasound to see how the sperm is doing with everything on the inside.  Niiiice! lol 


Overall I'm okay with the dr's appointment.  We aren't doing clomid just yet.  It's fine.  I'de rather try different things to make sure we aren't skipping any corners and not finding what is the problem.  Either way-I'll keep you guys updated.  


I'm cramping like crazy and I feel like there's this little man inside me chopping up my insides.  AUGH!  I forgot what cramps felt like....and *TMI ALERT* my period is soooo heavy I'm having to use a TAMPON and a PAD! WTH!?!?  Edgar was super nice and went to the store to get me some pads because  I just couldn't get off the couch!  Yes, I can act like a baby...I don't normally experience these things.  I'm off to bed! :)


P.S. We are leaving to California for a family wedding on Thursday so I probably won't check back in until after my dr's appointment on Wednesday.  Peace out! 

She's here!

Just as suspected....Aunt Flo arrived.  I'm beyond excited!  This is a new chapter in our life.  I know I shouldn't be getting so excited about this.  I won't know exactly how I am going to respond to clomid but just knowing that we are finally at the next step is great!  I have an appointment for tomorrow morning so I will update again.  :) 

Update...errr lack thereof.

Well I decided I should post an update for my few blog readers out there!  Thanks to Jill for calling me out!  :)

We've been super busy this Thanksgiving Holiday due to moving.  Not much of a vacation from work when there's packing/unpacking, organizing, reorganizing, decorating, etc.  With all this chaos comes not temping and not taking my meds regularly!  I know shame on me.  Not sure how this will effect the flow of things.  Not sure if there really is a "flow" going on anyway! lol

I'm feeling SUPER crampy today.  I *think* this is what's supposed to happen when I get my period like a normal person.  According to my chart-I should be up for a period soon anyway.  I am supposed to visit my dr sometime this week for another ultrasound or when Aunt Flo arrives to start clomid.  I'm realllly hoping AF comes so I can start the next process.  Even though that scares me just a little bit.  Either way-this was just a waste of a blog-but I just wanted you all to know that I am still here and we are still trying!  I'm hoping this holiday season brings us reason to celebrate. 

And we have an update...

Well I went to check in and SURPRISE-"you have a vaginal ultrasound scheduled".  Uhm-nice?  It wasn't nearly as bad as it may sound.  :) Oh the joys of my Dr appointments!! 

She had me sign a patient consent form about what side effects I could have by taking the steroids she prescribed me.  She let me know that they look "scary" but that I shouldn't have any of them because my dose is on the lower side.  Anyway-the steroids are for my high level of androgen or better known as male hormones.  The dexamethasone test showed that by taking the steroids my levels went from 140-20(!!!!) and I should be anywhere from 0-40...so that was great to hear!  She also said my lining looked "excellent" and she thinks I may ovulate soon.  She thinks the dex. test I did regulated my cycle (at least for this month) and instructed us to have sex every other day until I get my cycle.  Oddly enough I've been temping every morning at 5:45 when I wake up and it's starting to look like a "normal cycle".  I really hope we get our positive pregnancy test soon.  It would be such a great Christmas gift!  

On another note-if I don't start my period by the 24th I'm supposed to go in for another ultrasound and see if I even ovulated or if I'm pregnant.  If I do start my period I am supposed to go in on CD 1-5 and begin our first round of clomid!  If I'm not pregnant in 3 cycles of charting, continuing on my meds, and having sex every other day I will be scheduled for an HSG and something called an "after sex test" (which I need to google right now)! 

I'm happy with my appointment and I am really glad we seem to be moving forward.  Please keep everything you have on your body crossed for us that everything happens sooner rather than later!! :) 

Dr's Appointment and other news

Well I called the dr's office and finally got ahold of the nurse after playing a day of phone tag with her.  I have another dr's appointment scheduled for November 3rd!  Hopefully good things come out of this appointment.  I've been having pain in my left side-which could quite possibly be ovary pain.  This is kind of exciting because what if it means they are working correctly! lol I'm lame I know-but it's possible. 

Also in other news.  Today marks 4 full days that I dropped sodas like a bad habit!  Not only did I drop them-I also dropped every other type of liquid.  I've been strictly on water and I am so proud of myself.  Me=world's biggest Dr. Pepper lover!!!!  While it's been hard (yesterday I had my first headache!!) I keep remembering how hard I want to lose the next 10 lbs.  I want to be able to buy a size smaller pants.  I know if  keep pushing and keep my eye on the prize I WILL see the results I'm looking for.  If losing weight is the first step to becoming healthy and getting my cycle on track I am all for it! :) Please send major vibes I can hold off for a while longer.  I lasted 8 weeks last time on no sodas-but I was also allowing myself tea, gatorade, lemonade....this time it's strictly water.  I can do this!!! 

And the results are in...

I called the patient line because I hadn't heard from the Dr's office about Thursday's blood work.  To my surprise I heard "You have 1 new message."  I shot up in bed and turned the tv down.  Turns out the meds leveled out my DHEA and the results are "we're very happy with your levels-please call us for an appointment for your next steps."  I'm super excited but very cautious at the same time.  I'm ready to hit the ground running on this-too bad im slowly crawling with a weight attached to my legs. :( 

Weight Loss and more tests

I weighed myself.  And while I'm not comfortable enough to say how much I weigh just yet, I am proud to say I've lost 12 lbs this year.  While I've lost 12 lbs I am happy to announce that I've kept it off up to date.  My next goal is 10 lbs-which will put me at 22 lbs for the total this year.  This will put me under a weight I haven't seen in about 5  years.  This alone is exciting and if nothing happens on the baby front, knowing I am that much lighter is such an awesome feeling.
Last week I started taking dexamethason.  1 .5mg pill every 6 hours for a 48 hr period.  Apparently I have a high level of testosterone in my body which is a major factor in PCOS and while I haven't been diagnosed in that yet-I'm thinking it's coming and soon.  I did blood work to see if those pills helped my testosterone levels and eagerly waiting for the results.  I'm ready to move on to the next steps and I'm hoping to find out soon.  I hate waiting.  It make me more and more restless knowing I am literally in a waiting game right now and will probably be for a while.

How it began...

I was never "regular" growing up.  I took it as I was very into athletics and supposably that was known to make you irregular.  Fast forward to the months before marriage and Edgar and I abstained thinking it was just "that easy" to get pregnant.  We didn't want an "oops" baby before the wedding.  So after the wedding we decided to give it a shot.  Man we were in for a rude awakening.  I had a cycle of 130+ days.  I went to the Dr to figure out how to make my period come.  She gave me meds to jumpstart my period.  I also got about 8 tubes of blood taken and my first ever pap smear!  Talk about being overwhelmed.
Those test results came back with my prolactin hormone coming up high.  This hormone is what you get when you become pregnant which my dr thought this was causing my body to think I was pregnant which is why I wasn't having a normal period.  She gave me meds to try to lower the prolactin count and sent me for an MRI.  Apparently if you have pituitary tumors in your brain they leak the prolactin hormone and so I had to get checked for them.  Turns out-I was all clear.  Luckily the meds worked and my hormone is on average level now.  I've never researched so many things in my life!
Thinking I was in the clear and that I "should get pregnant now" I was ecstatic.  Nope-not as easy as it seems.  I've gotten more bloodwork known to man and each time there's always a next step.  I'm getting so irritated and feel like its getting harder to keep going.  Hopefully we see the end and soon!

Introduction

My name is Laura and my husband is Edgar.  We were married July 11, 2009.  I've always been opened to having a large family with a lot of kids-heck, we both come from them.  In no way did it ever cross my mind that we would have the troubles in which we are having.  
*A little background*
I lost my Father in 2003, my senior year in high school.  Not long after I lost one of my older Sisters and my best friend, LeeAnn, in November of 2008.  In June of 2009 (just 1 month before our wedding) I lost my Mother.  Times have been rough.  My family is now half the size of what it once was and knowing that kills me.  Not having my Mother here to let me know things will be okay kills me.  Having to deal with fertility issues with no one really here to quite understand is the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with. 

I feel when I open up to people about different tests the Dr is running, or when I have to go do blood work, or the sadness and emptiness I am holding onto inside-makes them think less of me.  Like I am burdening them with things that really don't matter to them. This blog is to help me vent, share, and document everything going on in this stage of my life.  You are welcome to follow along if you wish.